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It seems that the hardest period is over and I am entering lucky zone. Sometimes it seems that it is so easy to get on the top, but it is so painful when you fall. You are getting up even if you were not planning it. just because you work and people get to know you, they make certain impressions then they are sharing those impressions and then the stereotype is born. But this is the price for being a public official. Not sure I want it to be this way, but at the moment don't have any choice.

But then the devil gets into you that says, "you are successful, financially stable, enjoying what you are doing, why you want to leave all this behind and become just another ordinary citizen, especially in foreign country" and then u opt to thing over this suggestion. Why not stay here, where everyone knows and respects you, where you can resolve issues just by phone call it is so sophisticated.

but there is one but.

I clearly understand that nothing is forever, there is a beginning and an end of everything, especially in such country as mine, when you are never sure about future. do i want to risk my life that much? to risk the future of my family and relatives? Is this wellbeing of today worth it?

I think it does not. I think living safely in other country, especially if you want this, even not having such a successful carrier, but being happy is better than the situation I am in. Moreover I am still quite young and this is the time when I can risk and do something that I really want, otherwise I can always come back and continue my job. Nobody will be able to take away my knowledge.

And another important principle of my life, never stop when you reach your goal. continue further, otherwise life loses its essence.